artifice

well
im stuck on this planet with these other people
and this whole scenario with its simple behavioural mechanisms, inescapably

so, some grievances:

as a male i hate nothing more than makeup and jewellery or any accessory that attempts to add to your basic physical form, but only contrives some identity which is unattainable and never static

in the case of makeup, i can't settle on a face with cosmetics
my eyes literally cant relax on it. and i reel away.
i cant feel comfortable with cosmetics

jewellery is meaningless. your decoration is your face and body
rings for marriage are meannigless as they are religious symbols.

men cutting their hair is subordination to ideals which are not absolutes and exist only in the subjective mind.

About me

30 yr old male
dress in black
long hair
full beard
slim
tall
glasses >:[ (cheap hipster knock-offs)

uni ed in philosophy
some shit jobs
tried working/living abroad
eventually couldnt focus around groups of people
started getting overwhelmed by patterns of behaviour
stopped working
homeless
recieved housing from the state
went mad
now still living off the state and hoping for a more secluded place to live